I Am In Love

Watching the stars
and counting
until I lose
my count.
Thinking about
the things that
could've been
would've been
if I would have just spoken up
and told you
the truth.
But I didn't
it is too late
to let you know
how I feel.
Another crush,
love, desire
gone to waste
because of my fear
of being rejected.
Why can't I just
but it behind
me, say what
I need to say
what I feel.
Because I
am a coward.
A hopeless romantic coward.
He is the sparkly rainbow crayon
in the Crayola box
that I'm too afriad to use
in fear of it ending up gone.
The gorgeous
dress that cost
a fortune
that sits in the closet
in fear of getting
it ruined.
He is everything
I love that
I don't have
because I'm
too afraid of
it going to waste.
I am stupid
I am afraid
I am a wimp
I am in love.

The Mistake

This is not true, I was inspired by the song MyFriendJane by NeverShoutNever!


She was so beautiful
before that mistake
that wish she made
to make her "perfect".

She didn't know
how much she was loved
how truly perfect
she was in my eyes.

I wish I could go back
and let her know
how I really feel
let her really see.

Now she's in that white building
getting "fixed"
but can she ever be truly fixed?
Will she ever be the same again?

I'm not really sure
but I do hope so
because I love her with all of my heart
and I want things to just go back to how they were.

I thought she knew
how dangerous that was
how pointless that was
how terrible that was.

Maybe now she will learn from her mistake;
an eating disorder.

Tell Me

Tell me you love me
I'll tell you don't lie.
Tell me you hate me
I'll tell you that's fine.

Tell me you don't care
I'll tell you the same.
Tell me you won
I'll tell you it's just a stupid game.

Tell me you hate drama
I'll tell you you're a poser.
Tell me you'll miss me
I'll tell you I need some closure.

Tell me you're ok
I'll tell you that's not true.
Because even if I come off a certain way
I still love you.