I Am In Love

Watching the stars
and counting
until I lose
my count.
Thinking about
the things that
could've been
would've been
if I would have just spoken up
and told you
the truth.
But I didn't
it is too late
to let you know
how I feel.
Another crush,
love, desire
gone to waste
because of my fear
of being rejected.
Why can't I just
but it behind
me, say what
I need to say
what I feel.
Because I
am a coward.
A hopeless romantic coward.
He is the sparkly rainbow crayon
in the Crayola box
that I'm too afriad to use
in fear of it ending up gone.
The gorgeous
dress that cost
a fortune
that sits in the closet
in fear of getting
it ruined.
He is everything
I love that
I don't have
because I'm
too afraid of
it going to waste.
I am stupid
I am afraid
I am a wimp
I am in love.